I hope you like the changes I made to our blog. I was a little bored and felt like fooling around on my computer.
Iv’e found I really enjoy the peaceful solitude behind my computer screen. I know it may seem limiting, but I disagree. Here in this place I have the silence of mind to conjure up anything I can dream of; without the outside influence saying that it’s a trivial pursuit. The only limits I have here are my knowledge base and imagination. There is no control, no levels to beat. Im not being guided here as I explore the technological jungle, I’m hacking my own way through the weeds.I think theres a power to that, were all capable of exploring.
With all this I guess it goes without saying that someone who likes sitting behind there computer is an “introvert”. Whatever, fuck people for putting a label on everything that has a positive or negative connotation. The world is full of all different types of people. All different types of people are paving the way for a better, or worse future. I accept the fact that I’m more introverted, and I like it. The only thing stopping me from truly understanding this world are my fears and my own limiting beliefs, and I have none of those…okay maybe I do. But I’m damn sure not afraid to attack them with a blunt force that will ask them kindly to never come back.
This brings me to another topic…acceptance. I haven’t always been an accepting person to others, and most of all…my self. I have discovered the power of acceptance, or at least Iv’e tasted it. With acceptance comes an uplifting freedom to no longer act, do, or be someone your not life all the sudden opens it’s self up to you and speaks in understanding tone that says “now that you know, and accept who you are, this is who you can become” I think in the end, thats all most people are looking for. We look to be accepted by others. But maybe we just need to look in the mirror every day and accept our selves first, then we can move on with the rest of our life as humans. IDK just thinking out loud here.
Iv’e been doing a lot of thinking about us lately, you know that. Usually when were apart I do. I really have nothing else to do, since I mainly hang out with you at home. So I’m left here to ponder my thoughts and try to decipher them. There is so many thoughts sometimes! They seem to pile up like a messy filling system that needs to be organized on a consistent basis. But I think I got a handle on them.
First and formost I always think of my Love for you, and the ever changing landscape we dwell on. The terrain of our or (A) relationship can go from a sunny valley covered with lakes, animals, and plant life to a dramatic mountain range, stuck in a storm. I find that no matter where in this land we are, or what the weather is, there are things of beauty all along the way. It seems that were pretty weather proof, and tough enough to out last any terrain. Time may be our current battle…this battle hasn’t really put up a fight. I loved you a year ago, and I still love you. Ill love you forever and I know our love is much stronger than the test of time or any test for that matter.
To making us everlasting :p
I’m gonna go watch a movie baby face! Ill continue this when I can :p